Is It Enough?

When I was a little girl and others asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I would always respond, “a mom!” My mother was a stay-at-home mom (SAHM). My husband’s mother was a SAHM. Many of my friends mother’s were SAHM’s. In my little world, it was just a given that I would get married, have babies, and stay at home with my children.

As I grew older, I was encouraged to go to college, obtain a degree & have a career. After all, I would need a job in case it wasn’t God’s plan for me to marry or if something were to happen to my husband and I needed to support myself and my children. I have always been fascinated with God’s creation of the human body. I loved my science classes, specifically biology & anatomy. I chose to earn a Bachelors of Science in Nursing degree and obtain a license as a Registered Nurse.

Over the years I have had various jobs. I started babysitting for others when I was a young teen, started working part time at a local cafe when I was fifteen, went to nursing school, worked as a patient care tech for a year and a half, then most recently I have worked as a Registered Nurse for the past four years.

Today is the first day in a decade that I have not been employed outside of the home.

Today I woke up and my title is wife and “Mommy.”

This is my dream job, and yet, a little voice in my head says, “oh, that’s not enough! is that ALL???” I have had a career alongside these other roles for so long that I am left to wonder if being a SAHM is really enough? Sure, it’s a full-time work load & there is always something to keep me busy, but is it fulfilling? Am I wasting my time? Shouldn’t I be doing more?

…and then I look at the little face smiling up at me and I am reminded of the seriousness of my job as a mother. This little child does not know Jesus & it’s my job to teach him. It’s my job to introduce him to the most important man that ever lived, and the only One who can save him from his sins.

So, today I will cherish every moment of that blessed role. I will walk into my little one’s room, turn off his sound machine, turn his light on, and start singing, “Rise and shine and give God the glory!” just like we do each morning, and then we will start our day together. I will watch him as he makes new discoveries, smile and nod when he looks up at me and grins while showing me his toys, and give him encouragement to learn and grow. I will help him make messes and then clean up those messes. I will hug him, kiss him, cuddle him, and remind him of how much I love him. Most importantly, I will teach him about Jesus Christ.

Yes, that is a fulfilling role for me. That is more than enough.

Thank You, Lord, for giving me the privilege and blessing of being a stay-at-home mom!

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